I miss the girl that made everyone happy and didn't self-harm, wasn't suicidal. I miss the girl that had tons of friends. I miss the girl that didn't need cheering up because she was always happy. I miss the girl who used to be me.
Someone who means a lot to me hurt my feelings real bad when I told her how I was feeling. "How can you be depressed if you're so happy all the time?" And I just shook my head and said, "you're lucky you don't know the answer to that question.
You don't get it okay, it's not easy for me to explain. But I'm not trying to be lazy, it's just that I'm so tired and I have no motivation to succeed and I don't even know why this life is happening to me.