And talking to someone who doesn't understand is much worse than remaining silent and bottling up your troubles. Better to pour out your heart to the wind instead. It can't say anything back to upset you.
It was a surreal period in time. No one can even try to imagine what it is like until they also are forced to endure it. This day for me as 23 years ago on May still feels wrong that my dad died that many years ago.
During the grief process, you may be thrust instantly and without warning, into misery as the emotional wave swells and descends. Remind yourself that you have had these feelings before and that eventually it passes.