Life with any narcissist IS just AN ILLUSION. There are no true feelings behind that life on their end. They can rip your heart and feelings, your world apart around you without no warning and no remorse for what they've done.
'I remember years ago someone told me I should take caution when it comes to love. I did and you were strong and I was not, my illusion, my mistake, I was careless i forgot.' - lyrics from 'Impossible' by James Arthur