Was it easy to make up all those lies about him? Was it easy to blame him? Was it easy watching him tear apart? Was it easy to break someone's heart like that? Because you couldn't tell the truth, because you are afraid?
If you really want to find the perfect human relationship, look for someone who is like a cat. Likes to be alone and happy to be with you. Happy when you are there and happy when you are not there. Licks your face occasionally. Will take all the scratch
A better you will always attract a better next. Don't just look for someone beer than your ex. Pursue God with ask your heart and soul. We attract the energy we emanate and we draw in what we are afraid of.