Pretending to be happy when you're in pain is just and example of how STRONG you are as a person. In reality. the strongest ones feel it in order to heal, accept it and then move on. Strong means not pretending.
For I am not ashamed of the Gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to EVERYONE who believes.Romans May God continue to bless you as you seek His face, while standing strong in your faith.