Self-reflection is a humbling process. It's essential to find out why you think, say, and do certain things. then better yourself. Amen, and be sure to be honest about your discoveries so you can truly better yourself.
"Someday everything will make perfect sense. So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason." Even if someday it doesn't make perfect sense, it happened for a reason.